Something missing !

well to begin with such an ambiguous post that is trying to investigate the mere thot that crept into my mind ....is something major missing or is that an illusion or a phase.Sometimes even when everything is going fine there are some thots up there that leave you with weirdest of all questions. Usually reacting to situations come naturally but why is it that hard situations leave you speechless and pondering whether you should cry out for SOS or simply put your mind into it looking for solutions.There is a strange response that your brain gives you when you are in two totally different situations both in extremes. Something as natural as death of anyone close which is always preached to be inevitable leaves you thinking if you could have done something rather that just crying your lungs out OR is it simply natural.I initially thot of just being bland and keeping it to myself but somehow you need to vent out what you feel ...but WHY??? Simply if a psychologist tells me that some strange study has proved that its natural doesn’t really help me. Things like these ...do they really have a justification ....REACTIONS and REASONS of something like feverishness on death of close one ....I rather faced a nervous turmoil when i called up and the situation HITS me ....nd realize I have no answer ...no reaction.... just keep the thought out or keep contemplating on if you could have done or said something better.Is this the quest to be perfect in every situation that this BLOG notifies or is it just a conscious mind questioning the self and asking why sometimes something so natural becomes so difficult to handle. I still am looking....and will keep seeking HIS answers.Keep smiling (why do we pretend when something really pinches....like when I am really numb inside i still end my blog with Keep smiling which is rather a formality...) GOD bless